I'm jealous of virgins?

I have also been d. So I know what you are going through. First of all, Im very sorry that happened to you. No woman should ever have to go through that pain. You should not feel dirty about your self. It was NOT your fault. The emotions you are going through are very normal for a person whio has been ually abused. I believe you still will be able to get married and have children one day. It just takes time to heal spiritually and emotionally. I know it may be hard to speak to others about what happened, but I suggest you maybe go to group therapy for survivors of ual abuse. You get to also speak to others who are going through what you are going through. Trust me, it DOES help alot. Also, I wouldn't worry right now about telling others what happened to you, unless you are comfortable doing so and if it helps you to speak about it. You owe no one an explaination.. I will pray for you sweety.. God Bless you and take care